Drawing the stories of my unusual life experiences, And singing the songs of realism, I express the joys of life Because “we are all born to laugh”. by Yutan

One day, 

the doctor told me that I was over the limit for the steroid intake,

So I was recommended to remove my large intestine.

The surgery would add an excretion bag next to my stomach. 

For me,

That was worse than dying. 　

When I was little, 

I studied hard,

And always strived for the best, but the result was this disease.

I hit a big wall in my life. 

I told myself, 

“I’m just waiting to die.

I shouldn’t care about what other people think of me!

I should live the rest of my life how I like it!”

I firmly set my mind to it.  

Even though my body did not allow it, 

I went to places I wanted to go,

Met with people I wanted to meet,

And lived my life how I wanted to. 

My choices

should have came back to me, but instead,

I was disliked and made fun of,

And most people withdrew from my life. 

Following through with my choices

Required a lot of courage,

But my disease suddenly vanished like it never happened.

It was “a moment when I was able to put myself first”

I made a recovery,

And as if I was trying to take back the 14 years,

I reexperienced the joys of eating, sleeping and going out,

And spent everyday enjoying life. 

After understanding that everything normal about life,

Should not be taken for granted, 

I realized that to live and have a normal life is a miracle 

And I was overcome with gratitude.

When I started blogging about the importance of “living your best life”

A lot of people wanted to hear more,

So I began giving talks on “how to live freely and happily in the moment”.

Within a blink of an eye,

I started gaining a lot of listeners

And began receiving offers from abroad. 

I have met people who started crying from the relief of seeing me,

And had people opened up their struggles to me,

and the more I listen and give them advice,

the more smiles I put on their faces.

It made me realize that my bed-bounded life was not a waste,

And I felt happy.

However, 

When I was giving a talk one day,

I met someone from Oahu

Who gave similar talks,

So I went to listen to her.

A lot of people were there to find help

and I saw a lot of people relying on the speaker for that help.

What I was doing,

was only leading people to depend on me…

I felt suffocated.

I wanted a lot of people 

To be themselves, and live more freely,

But it felt like I was “doing the opposite”,

So from that day on, I stopped giving talks. 

The next day, I met a woman at my homestay.

She made songs that were simple enough for kids,

And continuously sang them merrily

Watching her

Put a smile on my face and others around me

“Right now”, at this moment, she is expressing the joy in life

And watching her, 

Changed my perspective 

From that moment on, 

I added melodies to the lyrics I had written before in the past

However, I was not good at singing,

So a week after returning home,

I took a Shinkansen to Tokyo

And started practicing with my old voice trainer 

It was also related to my dream of “singing at Studio Ghibli”